Obedience: Walking into your calling

I know it’s been a while, and I have big news (YAY!). This summer I’ll be heading out to Pemba, Mozambique from May to August with Iris Ministries’ Harvest School. This is huge because the one thing I thought was lacking in my work was being able to serve the poor. I went into international development wanting to make a difference in the lives of people who are affected by the HIV epidemic. Once I started working, I was so far removed from the “frontline” that I felt that I wasn’t making a big difference, and I wasn’t forming personal relationships with the people that God has called me to love.

With this being said, I’m excited to finally get back to basics, loving on people, and hopefully taking you all on this journey. I do what I do because I just can’t stop loving people; SO, as of May, I’ll be blogging about my experience in Mozambique (please pray for decent internet)!

Now to the main point of this post; walking out your calling through obedience. Getting to this place where I’m off to Mozambique took a lot of internal wrestling with God, a ton of faith and trust, and of course obedience. The Lord had dropped going to Pemba in my heart about a year ago, but I wanted to ignore it because I had a career, comfortable living, and I love the people I surround myself with here in the DC area. I believe the hardest part for me was walking away from my career. This includes all the time I spent in graduate school AND the amount of loans I have accrued (trust me… I owe enough to make 5 grown men cry).  I know I could have continued in my career, moving up the development ladder writing proposals and putting out “fire drills”, but my heart wasn’t in it and I didn’t have peace about it. I know to the outside world, it may look completely insane, and it won’t necessarily be easy, but everything is falling into place in the way that only God can do it!

Now here I am, finally being obedient to what God is calling me to do next, and I have amazing peace about it. Walking in obedience is not easy, and there are times I want to turn to God and say “I got this” or “I think my plans and what I want to do is better”.  I’ve tried doing “my own thing” in the past, and it’s never turned out the way I thought, but when I face my fears and do what He’s calling me to do, everything falls into place, and it’s always better than I could imagine (never the way I thought it would). As I prepare to go, He’s taking me a journey of trust and faith. Because I’m not working, I’m fundraising for my trip (I’ve never fundraised for a trip in my life). Instead of trusting in my own finances, I legit have to trust God in paying my way.

God has a calling and a purpose for everyone, but we have a choice if we want to walk in it, or try and figure out our own path. Has there ever been a time when God has called you into something, and when you finally took the first step, you realize it’s AMAZING!!!! Or has he put something on your heart, and the vision seems so overwhelming, you don’t know where to start. Comment below and let me hear your experiences, or if you have any questions please do not hesitate to contact me at admin@teawithtifa.com.

With love,

Tifa

No longer a slave to fear

I’ve always loved singing. You can ask any of my friends, whenever I have a chance, I will break out into song and dance (and I’ll do it anywhere), I’ll even make up random songs about nothing.

One of my favorite things is to sing worship. I LOVE WORSHIP!!! Something about singing songs to and about Papa God just changes the atmosphere. No matter what kind of day I’m having, singing and praising can change it for the better. There’s a song called “Oh Mighty One” by Incense and Arrows. The part of the song which I LOVE is when they sing “Worship is my warfare, My praise is a weapon,” and this is so true!

Story time: I’ve always wanted to try out for our churches worship team, I’ve always felt like I’ve had a calling to lead worship in a church setting. I have to say, our church has some of the BEST worship and worship leaders I have ever heard!!! With that being said, I have always had a fear about trying out for the worship team. I had a fear that I would not be good enough to sing with what I considered the best of the best (you should hear the vocals on these leaders, and how they usher people into worship). Also, do I have the right gifting to lead people in worship?

Seven months after I started going to my church, there was a call for worship leaders and musicians (YAY). Only problem is, this means I would have to try out… So I prayed about it, and reluctantly signed up for a spot. Three days before auditions, I receive the song (Come to the River by Housefires II) that I had to sing both lead and harmony. To be honest, I had NEVER heard this song… and to me, I didn’t think it was an easy song (I was expecting to sing hot cross buns, and they gave me the Star Spangled Banner).

Fast forward to D-day (audition day), I am super nervous, AND there is traffic getting to the church (talk about fears and anxiety coming to life). I get to church on time, and they are finishing up another audition. 10:30am comes around, and it’s not my turn. After a short interview with the team, I get on stage with the band… my moment to shine! As I opened my mouth to sing, I didn’t know if my breakfast or a note would come out (yay nausea), but as I sang, the feeling disappeared, and I loved every moment of it. A week after the audition, I found out I MADE IT!!!! So yah, I stared fear in the face, said not today, and am now doing something that I believe The Lord has put on my heart.

There are gifts, paths, and purposes in life that The Lord has laid out for us. The sad thing is, a lot of the time we miss out because of fear. All fear does is replace trust, hope, and faith. Do not fear anything… and even if you do fall, Papa is holding out His hand to catch you, dust you off, and guide you forward.

Let me know of a time when you’ve stared fear in the face and said “Not today!” in the comments below.

With Love,

Tifa